The theme? Every Dailies. It's a broad topic that has a million different ways to be approached. Originally, my plan was to scrap the story of how I think of my kids so many times in one day. But, then, I narrowed the topic even further and documented, in a rather brief format, my thoughts about how many times a day I think about Zach. I took the low road here, it's not an upbeat and fun and frivolous recollection at all. I continue to struggle with my oldest baby not feeling the need to communicate with us. I continue to feel sad. Most days it's all good and I can let it just BE. But while I was making my layout for the May Gallery, this was how I was feeling...so I just went with it.
I sewed some chevron ribbon, that picks up the orange in the map featured at the bottom of the layout, as a divider between the photo taken on the day that Zach left for Navy Boot Camp and the journaling completed almost a year later. Yes, I am in that awkward stage of trying not to cry and just wanting to let it all loose. NOT a great photo of Mommy and Zach at all, but Isabella did a wonderful job of capturing the moment and the emotion.
I cut a pennant banner from graph paper to adhere to the photo and the journaling to show that the photo and journaling were from two different dates and attached them with my Tim Holtz Tiny Attacher.
The American Craft chipboard arrow points to the title of my layout and this very same phrase is echoed several times in my journaling as well. It's a woodgrain tape and I used my old school Dymo Label Maker.
The page is sized to 6x12 all because I found some page protectors on clearance for 25 cents at Big Lots and just had to try them out.
Find the May write.click.scrapbook. Gallery here. And find all other months in the left sidebar of the blog...such great inspiration from the team! Be careful, though, you'll get lost in all that talent.
Aw hoe beautiful! I love this, and it made me laugh about the page protectors. That sounds like me!
ReplyDeleteI know, right? Get something new and you've got to use it right away!
DeleteGreat job doing a difficult page. Love the design! Totally unrelated...I was pulling clothes out of the dryer last night and had socks falling to the floor and thought of you!
ReplyDeleteNow that's funny and makes me smile. Glad I could provide some humor in your day. ...and I bet you have tons more socks to fold than I!
DeleteOh, sweet one. ((Big HUGS!!!))) What a beautiful page, and photo. I think perhaps that is one of the joys, and possibly curses, of being a mama -- they are on your heart, every single day, no matter what. And that can cause both joy and pain -- but, oh what a blessing to have that!! TFS your talent and your heart!
ReplyDeleteOh Monika,I feel your pain. Some kids just aren't great communicators,though I think they enjoy speaking with us when we make the effort. My son in Budapest never calls or emails me, except on my birthday, or when he needs money:)
ReplyDeleteBut he is aways happy to speak with me when I call on Skype.
Take care,
Vicki
I needed to hear this, but I'm guessing you knew that, didn't you? Thanks, I appreciate you, Vicki.
DeleteAwwww, reading this made my heart ache for you!!! It's so hard when our grown kids don't need us!!! Maybe Zach will read this & you'll get a phone call. :)
ReplyDeleteMy oldest is married now (since Dec. 2011)..now when he calls he only asks to talk to his dad..they have farm business so mom's out of the loop.)
Made my heart ache... I guess nothing can ever prepare us for that day, when they leave the nest and (almost) never look back... he has got to be thinking about you too even if he doesn't reach out to you so often. Love your page and the format you used (I need some 6x12 protectors so thank you for the tip about BL) - {{HUGS}}
ReplyDeleteThis is so beautiful and raw.
ReplyDeleteIt's" too close to home" for me to find the right words of comfort.
I'm sorry for that but please know that I share your pain.
{{{{HUgs}}}}